My cat went missing almost a year ago...?

and I miss her. I had her for 5yrs. She was so smart, I taught her sit, come, up-up (like on the bed/table/on my back/whereever), to walk on a leash, kiss kiss(I'd kiss her on the forehead while she gave me a head bump), um we'd play games like hide and seek or tag lol she was not too independent not too dependent, she was the perfect cat and I loved her so much. I mean how can I find another cat like her? Should I try?? Or how do I get over it? She's stopped haunting my dreams and that almost seems like betrayal. I'd wish the dreams to stop and now that they have.. yeah =( I don't know what to do! I want the pain to stop but I don't want to betray her, I guess just want her back but yeah.